girl of the hour ❤

to one of the toughest woman i know, 

hiiii vivi gerl! happy birthday! i know that you're having quite a hard time now (medyo alammo yan nang very very light) but let me tell you how great your transition has been and how amazing you have become. 

remember the past 4 years when you were struggling to pass all your upcoming quizzes, practicals and major exams? when you were up until sunrise just to finish the report for your laboratory experiment? when you had to spend your breaks for reviews for the next period? the busy schedule plus the demanding friends, plus lovelife and break up all at the same time!  those things you did just to be where you are now? oh well, you're having them again, more and worse :) despite that, you accomplished everything successfully.  you are one hell of a great achiever vivi :) you were struggling to pass, but you have received more than passing remarks, and you freaking deserve it. :) 

have i told you how proud i am of you? ay oo. palagi yata. hihi and with matching teary eyes pa. lol. yeah, but those are just plain 'congrats baby girl' so, here. God knows how proud I am of you and how great my dreams for you are. just so for you to stop thinking that nobody appreciate all the hard works you do. lol. kidding. pero isa na yon sa mga rason. hahaha :D i believe in every thing that you can do and in all your potentials, kaya please naman, have faith on yourself. kung ganyan ako kaganda at kasipag at katalino at lahat na, i would definitely have no time to entertain insecurities or other negativities that occupy my head. how many times do i have to tell you that YOU are AMAZING woman that it is definitely other people's loss if they choose to give up on you? uso magising uy! hihi hashtag patawad ✌

i want you to realize how blessed you have become, not only for those material things and recognitions you acquired, but also for the "EXTRAORDINARY" experiences that you have gone through. diba? naiisip mona? there were lots of things na napag daanan mo, but they didn't kill you, they made you stronger. sabi nga sa kanta, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. lol maisingit lang. (btw, im watching conjuring at this moment) and i believe, you are strong. and you too, you have to believe that you are. para naman malampasan mo yan. hihi lammoyan 

remember how i keep on telling you to let things happen naturally? to allow yourself to feel everything at its own course of time? remember how i keep on arguing with you and your issues? how we (mabel and i) battled to fight that 'stubborn kid' inside you? hihi remember how you keep on pushing and fighting for your reasons but ending up retracting and losing the argument because you admit that you were not able to think for other's behalf? that is how strong your personality is. that is how experiences knock you. and we've all seen that.  

we were all witnesses of your hard works, pain and sacrifices. may it be for your academics, family, friends or ex. lol patawad. sink in na ba? hihi patawad ulit. :) you have gone through a alot and i want you to know that there are more in store for you. haha oo, alam ko, ako ang nagdidikta ng tadhana mo. kidding.  remember, you have US. you may lose SOME people along the way, but that would mean another free space for someone better to come along. believe that life has a lot more to give you that would help you become the person they never thought you would be. you yourself may not be able see how things would work, but i tell you, they'll be fine. keep on reminding yourself of your worth, so you don't settle for less than what you deserve.  you've been through this. alam mo yan. and this one is the same thing. this just came in a different approach, having different reason. but definitely needs the same adjustments. baka itanong mo na naman kung anong mali mo ha? or kung anong kulang mo? lol. wala. naattach ka lang. you hoped, you loved. and that babygirl, i tell you is never wrong. you don't stop yourself from loving and caring for people who were once part of your life. you don't turn that love into hate either. you keep on wishing them well and yourself better. hirap no? but that is how it really is.

for how many years have life been so challenging for your emotions? it keeps on knocking you on your core. on your weakest point. siguro nga it's about time that you accept na hindi ka mahal ng diyos. lol joke. it just means to say na kaya mo. :) and one reason siguro is that hindi ka pa din naniniwala na you are worthy of something better. there is something better.  have you read that once? that sometimes people can not let go because they don't believe that something good can happen twice. di man exact, pero parang ganyan din. haha i know how hard it is to let go of the things you're used to. to hope for that one thing for a long time, just to find out that it was an empty promise. sakit no? but that happens. people hurt people. intentionally or not. and the one's that are hurt suffer from the pain and heal by themselves alone. and you, my dear, is going through such right now. (yung totoo, paulit ulit ko tong binabanggit) patawad. you have to heal by yourself alone. kaya mo yan. believe that you can, and your half way there. that's a cliche but i know you know that's true. 

letting go, and moving on is no new to you. but, acceptance, letting go and moving on with a light heart is completely a different story. i know. you might be blinded by the tears and pain that you are suffering from right now, but remember, it is not always you alone. there are always 2 sides of a coin.  you know your story very well, but you have no idea how the other side has come up with his own. don't let pain get the best in you. don't let yourself see through the negative traits in people. there are still great memories to keep. it was a good experience after all. when hate starts to creep up on you, remind yourself that you can do better. and you are better than that. it's hard but once you start doing it, the next steps wouldn't hurt. 

allow yourself to fully embrace life and its gifts to you alone. to explore things and reach wider horizons. allow life to be cruel, for it would shape you into a better you. allow experiences of heartbreaks to knock you on your core for it would make you stronger and wiser. allow experiences

 to change you in a good way. people keep on coming and just leaving. let them. you have a life

 of your own, live it. people would hurt you, so bad that you may not forget, but forgive them anyway. not everyone can understand you, but that doesn't mean that there's no one. you always have me. us. 

cry when your heart can no longer hold its strings together. laugh at life's ridiculousness. love when love comes. feel every emotion freely and fully, without having to skip a step in recovery. free yourself from hurt and pain. allow time to heal you. believe me, allow it and it would :) 

i can't say anything more to you. i've known you for almost a decade and you never fail to humor me and inspire me at the same time. you are mature and immature in your own ways and i admire you for  that.  you can always have that intelligence and wit work at the same time. one thing that i would never get tired of admiring. :) always know that no matter what happens, may you fail or succeed, be in love and in pain, pass exams or not, or be feel unappreciated or overwhelmed, you'll always have that one fangirl sister ready to support you in any means, at all levels. ❤ that's how great our friendship is. 

so, let me thank you this time for all the things you have given me, may it be material things or time especially, for the advises and remarks, for the support and love and care and concern that sometimes really makes me want to believe how amazing life is despite the struggles that i have. thank you for being with me in all my ups and downs, may you know it or not. i may have not told you how grateful i am to have you in my life, knowing that you are a text away or a tweet away when i need you. hihi salamatsssss phowzzz :) 

i wish you all the best in life! and may your journey along the 20's road be fruitful and worthy for keeps. *wink* i wish for more people to inspire you to do better and bring out the best in you. i wish you all the time in the world to heal and make you realize your worth. i wish you to feel all the love that you deserve more than the love that you lost. and lastly, i wish you more wisdom to shape you to become a more mature (haha patawad) and well rounded person. hihi dont get me wrong, ill never

 get tired of dealing with you and your issues. hahaha im used to it! :) i appreciate those more, rather than you not telling me anything at all. :) so thank you for being open and for the trust. i hope you don't get tired of sharing. we'll never get tired of listening. that is an oath. :) hihi 

you have gone through a lot wisely. and i know that this time, you are even wiser. the sweetness of any chocolate may not be enough to ease the pain and the longing, but the sweetness of our friendship would do. it's a happy birthday after all :) 

i love you always :)  

enjoy your day! you're on your early 20's alreadyyy! cheers to a good life ahead vivi! 💋💋💋