3.14.2016

thoughts

Should I get alarmed that despite this week's busy and toxic schedule, here I am, sitting perfectly still on my bed, typing this blogpost? Well, to be honest, I'm dying deep inside, confused on how to survive this week. But really, that's all I can do. I've no idea how to get thru the OSCE of each of my subject, so I just let my fears and worries swallow me, besides, I'm used to really having an almost-nervous breakdown during those times. hehehe 

On a lighter note, one of my girlfriends randomly checked up on me, asking about any update. She's basically concerned about my love life, but I was quick enough to burst her bubble and told her I STILL have none. Not sad about it though. It just lead me on thinking of how it actually feels once I have my own, you know, jowa. hehehe But as I told her, I'm not really in a rush or in a hurry about having one since I know my priorities (naks!) Knowing myself, I might not be able to juggle my academic responsibilities together with girlfriend duties well. So, wag na lang muna. I also told her to just chill and calm her senses and allow the natural flow of love to find its way to me hehehe cheesy! She then brought up a news about one of our high school batch mate who's now single. kaloka. She's trying to build him up on me but I told her not to, because I felt it doesn't seem right. (ako pa maarte pls) hahahah And I'm honestly hoping that he'd get back to his former girlfriend. ganoin! 


Anyway, that's basically it. I'd love to discuss more of my thoughts and insights about some random topics, pero try ko muna mag aral at pumasa, okay? God Bless everyone! *wink* 

3.06.2016

a great-kind-of-unexpected

There are only few people in MedSchool who I really trust and cherish, beside my high school and college friends. And as we slowly approach the upcoming clerkship, I want to tell you how grateful I am to have gotten to know you. Clerkship is indeed one of the most-awaited part in Medschool which we all look forward to, and so, before all the busy schedules and night duties get in the way, I'd like to share something with you. Hope you appreciate this simple 'paandar' of mine. 

medyo corny and all, so better read your part na lang hihihi  *covers face with a pillow* #shytypeakoeh 



There Ocampo


Medem! I can still clearly remember the very first time we called each other medem! It was during one of your petty tampuhans with Diony, and you came up to me, asking for *forgot what exactly it was* and I was calling everybody Medem. You laughed with the way I say it, and from then, you called me Medem and I continued calling you the same. And now it feels awkward whenever you call me  with my real name. Oh well, enough with the kwento. I'd like to tell you that you are one of the those people whom I least expect to get really close with. Maybe because I never thought we'd jive and actually share several similarities (kasi di ba nga, jinudge na kita) hahahahaha. Thank you for being worthy of my trust and keeping everything real when it comes to your thoughts. Thank you for always letting me barge in to your room and for not complaining whenever I stay late just to catch up (despite our daily chikahan) and share even the most irrelevant events of my weekends. Thank you for being so generous with everything you have, may it be your weekly supplies of snacks and candies, transes or even juicy chismis hehehe I'd always be grateful that I got to spend most of my third year life with you. *yuck, parang mag-on* Lastly, thank you for accepting me for who I am (with no pressure,) letting me be playful and bully and annoy you. For painstakingly dealing with all my crying moments and the in-betweens, thank you so so much! You know the kind of love we have, it's tough. *wink*


Rosalie Duco

Who would've thought we'll get this close? Ikaw talaga ang isa sa mga nawala sa listahan ko ng mga sure kong di ko makakaclose e! hahahaha anyway, if I'm not mistaken, the very first time we got really close was during an inhuman sesh at our dorm, tama ba? anyway, I feel so lucky that I got the chance to be close to you and bond with you so many times before the busy timeline of clerkship kicks. I love those random messages we send each other and send good vibes and positivity amidst the stress we face in LIFE. *you know what I mean* Thank you for being so quick to extend help and reach out even during those times when I won't say anything. Thank you for understanding all my reklamos and kaartehan (the white comforter and instagram-worthy headboards) and for being true to your words. Thank you for being generous of your time, even during weekdays and for those times when you would check if I'm okay. I highly appreciate you and I want you to know that my room will always be open for you, ganon kita kamahal. To more spontaneous dinners and movie nights!


Lana Gonzales

This is the first time that I would sincerely apologize to you for being so bitchy on the first day of school. SORRY  na Lanababes!!! Though we find it funny and joke about it all the time, I really didn't expect you'd get affected by that. hahaha akala ko kasi, hindi big deal! hahaha Anyway, I want to tell you that you are one of the most important 'bitches' in my life and I would forever regret that I actually treated you the way I did few years back. hehehe We could've been closer much earlier. Well, gayunpaman, I want to thank you for consistently being so nice to me despite my Queen B attitude. I always look forward to our Takeiya bondings and juicy-over-sushi sessions. I'm glad to have found a sister in you, who, in all ways would make me feel appreciated and loved. Thank you for being so sweet and caring, for being patient and understanding of my feelings. Also, for trusting me with your stories and personal thoughts. Remember that, whatever happens, I'll always be you Rheababes who would text you randomly even if you reply hours or even days after. Ganon ka kalate magreply, but I love you still.


Toni De Guzman-Laluna

Hi darling! Just like Ros, you're one of the people I least expect to get close with, especially during the first year of MedSchool. Maybe because I found you intimidating (hahaha, yes) during the first few months....BUT, to be honest, you're actually one of the most charming woman I know. Di na yata mawawala yang charms mo kahit tumanda ka. hahahaha Anyway, thank you for opening you home for us during the Verdict night, and transform me (naks!) into a presentable human being. hahahah I was never good with make up, but, maarte enough to pull it off. Thank you for being a breath of fresh air (together with Lana) during stress moments and for making me feel appreciated by listening to whatever I have to say. Thank you also for letting me bring out my 'inner bitch' without the fear of being judged. I love talking to you and your candid expressions. I look forward to seeing your baby Alpha, and I know you'd be a great mom, as how great of a wife you are to Paolo. P.S. My loo will always be available for you.


Felice Carlos

Miss! It all started as study nights during exam week and then ayun, we clicked! Funny cause I never thought we would jive really well, kasi akala ko di moko feel kasi sobrang arte ko. And then one time, we studied out, in Starbucks, tapos nagchikahan na tayo and opened up about some personal problems and life lessons. Tapos ikaw din, you trusted me enough and share your side of the story. We bonded over coffee and ophtha trans until dinner (originally dapat before 6 nakauwi ka na) and I appreciate the amount of time that you shared with me, kasi nga nag extend ka. From then on, we now have our own inside jokes, na kahit tinginan lang, we already know what we want to say. hahahaha I want you to know that whatever it is, kahit immaturity or mga secret gala and night out mo, I'll always be here to listen and open my room for you. Lagi kang welcome dito. And remember, whatever you do, people will always say something wrong about you, kaya carpe diem! gawin mo na lahat ng gusto mo, wala slang pake! *wink* 


Marielle Ramajo

Hi madam! Ikaw pa ba? Syempre di ka mawawala sa mga taong totoong pinagkakatiwalaan ko :) From the start as in first year pa lang, sobra nakong grateful especially during times na magkagroup tayo sa SGD, Clinics, ward works and lahat. You've always been so generous of your time and everything na meron ka (even the freshest juicy). Thank you for never letting me down and for always being there to listen kahit wala naman kakwenta kwenta yung mga sinasabi ko. Thank you for always welcoming me in your circle kahit di naman ako part ng barkada nyo and for your advices kapag #alammona hehehe Thank you din for those 2 years of keeping up even during the wee hours of the morning just to finish our histories, and for endlessly calming my nerves everytime na nagpapanic ako. For understanding kapag lutang na ako sa mga nangyayari and kapag lagi moko kinakampihan from those people I (alam mo na) hate.hahaha ang sama natin. At eto pa!!! Sobrang salamat sa pagsheshare mo sa lahat ng bago sayo, whether games, fangirling or kahit anong bago! I appreciate everything. sobra! And for always inviting me to go to Ilocos, kahit di naman matuloy tuloy, thank you sobra!!! I look forward to internship with high hopes to spend more time and bond with you more. Mahal kita kahit mukang ang user ko minsan *eyes rolling* hahahah<3


Tammy Gonzales

Honestly, ikaw talaga ang target kong iclose, bilang napakilala ka na sakin ni Jandrei dati. But, even though we don't belong in the same circle, I'm glad to know na kahit anong mangyari, alam kong andyan ka lang whenever I need you and give your unbiased thoughts and advices. Buti na lang, magkathesis tayo and we got to bond over Cartimar days and La Salle Araneta and LRT hustle. I can clearly remember that time when we are about to go to UP to get our Staph aureus sample, when I shared about my high school friends and how I treat them, you told me, "katawa ka Rhea, para kang jowa makipagfriend" *yuck ba? sobrang clingy?!* hahahah and when you finally told me, 'Basta eto lang tatandaan mo, sa pamilya mo lang ikaw magtiwala, kasi kahit anong mangyari sila lang yung di mawawala at di ka iiwan.' true enough. So, thank you for always letting me invade your space during free times and for always updating me with new ganaps. Palagi kitang niyayaya na kumain sa labas or magbonding kasi lagi ko talaga nilolook forward yung mga times na magkkwentuhan tayo. Because I know, that whatever I say, hindi mo mamimis-interpret or di moko ijujudge. hue hue thank you endlessly. And sana naman, matuloy na yung bonding natin, kahit isaw lang ulit kay Mang Larry or kahit sleepover na lang sa condo mo. hahahaha echos. pero seryoso, mahal kita, beyond words *hart hart*


So ayun na nga....
You see, I don't usually show it, pero I appreciate everything that each of you do to me, may it be a small favor or your initiative to extend help whenever I need it (kahit di ko hinihingi), so thank you. Di man ako showy of my love and appreciation sa friendship natin, I wanna let you know na I'm sincere and as a real friend, I'm always here for you kahit ano mangyari. Okay? so enough na yon. Di bagay sa reputation ko bilang Madam ang magdrama. dapat palaging pa-bitch lang, ganern. hahaha joke. Love you girls! 

Here's to a successful MedLyf and to great years ahead!


P.S.
Sobrang di ko ineexpect na makakaclose kayo lahat, but I guess, Unexpected friendships are the best.

God bless everyone! Happy Sunday!



skinny love

come on skinny love just last the year



3.02.2016

Hello, MARCH!

Hi, just a quick blog post before I prepare for school. Welcome, March!!! Time flies so fast, I can barely keep up! It's so surprising how things change and unfold before my eyes and I can't do anything to stop them from happening. It's a good thing though, coz it means that we'll get by with whatever we're going through right now. You know the cliche, Nothing lasts forever. So self, I advise you to just chill, keep cool, get yourself together and smile. Keep that grace under pressure in you and continue to radiate good vibes to the people around you. 

P.S. Keep listening to good music every morning. It puts you to good mood. *wink*
Now Playing: Everywhere by: Michelle Branch

And, can you see my new wallpaper! Cute diba! Sparkly and gold and very maarte. fumafancy 



2.28.2016

SUNDAY CURRENTLY vol IX

Hello there! Ah! finally after several months, I'm back to writing another SC post! Well, this may have no difference with the others (still containing med stuff and all that) but the thought of having a new SC post thrills me enough hehehe Anyway, lez go. 

Currently...

Reading: NOTHING. well, nothing yet, but my hema-onco trans is right at the corner waiting for me. I'll have a long exam tomorrow about the topic and would you believe, it's our last topic for pedia! which brings us to the thought that.... internship is just 2 and a half months away. *wide scared eyes*

Writing: Aside from this, I'm on a current break from writing my ophtha history, which is also due tomorrow. Honestly, that subject has gotten to be my least favourite among all my subjects, alongside with ENT. Ewan ko kung bakit, but really, ang lala ng level of stress that they give me. 

Listening: Unwritten by Natasha Beddingfield *feel the rain on you skin, no one else can feel it  for you...* Good vibe Sunday it is 

Wearing: PJ's and loose shirt. on the bed, no make up, chips and chocolates on the floor. It's a good vibe/ cheat sunday. 

Thinking: Of how to be productive today and the rest of my remaining weeks before I enter internship. 

Wishing: for time to slow a bit...wait kasi, di pa ko ready. you know, chill, let me put myself back together first.

Praying: for all the good things to last longer.

Feeling: Now? uhh mixed emotions plus sleepy. 

Wanting: Well, I'm actually planning to open my own bank account. Which I think is good for me to develop a habit of saving and eventually become a better and more responsible consumer. Wag na kasi bili ng bili! Rhea May! 

Loving: Who? Char. waley. But now, I'm just grateful about everything. No matter how busy my schedule gets or how heavy my work loads are, still, I enjoy every tad bit of it and I wouldn't want it in any other way. 

There you go! Happy Sunday!!  

2.24.2016

tick tock

you know, that thing... that overrated thing. I admit that I've been wanting it for a long time now, not in a desperate-kind of want though. But i want it... the real thing. The one that's good for long term. The kind that mature people actually experience in real life. The one that we all see in movies with happy endings, or at least close enough. I want it true and worthy of risks and time and feelings. The one that gives you motivation to get up each morning and face the day confidently knowing that you'll make it because someone believes you could. That kind of inspiration you have that radiates from you and people would see it as something amazing and great and beautiful. I want it so badly but I'm not sure if I want it now, or maybe I want it now but I'm not ready for it now. 

I don't know if it's just the hang over from two movies I've watched that Im too emotional than what I usually am, but for sure it's not hormones because I just had my 'time of the month'. Maybe it's just a little knock in me reminding me that I'm still a vulnerable lady...waiting and waiting patiently until a slap on the face would come up and make me realize that there's actually more to life than worrying. Learn to stop and smell the flowers, darling. 

This post is so vague that even I could not understand where I am coming from...but I won't delete this for the sake of remembrance. Goodnight. 

2.14.2016

valentine's day:sweet nothings

hello there! so my last post was almost a month ago, and you could probably guess how busy the past few weeks had been. So now, I'm back and I'm glad this is no ordinary Sunday, but a Valentine's day. To tell you honestly, I'm just doing nothing here, lying on the bed, watching random videos and plainly giving myself some break from school. But mind you, I still have 3 more subjects to study since exams are still just around the corner. But truthfully, I wouldn't want to spend this day in any other way. That's all! Happy Valentine's Day!!