Hi again, today I spent my day at our business, together with my sister. Pero uneventful naman yung whole Maundy Thursday ko. By the way, I tried texting this 'guy' (low-key landi move) about some you-know, patay malisya things. Pero, I also took this day to really think of what this whole crazy thing is about. My thoughts were like, 'Baka naman namiss ko lang sya, or baka naOA ko lang yung matagal ko syang di nakakausap' But still, I've not come down to any conclusion or any solid reason or explanation about this. Medyo magulo pa din e. Honestly, this time na sobrang nacoconfuse nako, parang mas gusto ko na lang mawala to para mabalik na normal yung life ko. Wow, as if nagulo talaga (though, somehow it really did) Kasi naman e, ano ba kasi to, sumulpot lang bigla to e. I was never prepared to face this kind of battle. (Anything, wag lang yung macacaught off guard ako sa kilig) kasi nafrufrustrate ako kapag di ko mapigilan yung emotions ko. You know what I mean, you never wanna get into something unprepared.
So one thing, what if this is really uhh....love? So I'd love him from afar? That's sad and frustrating and heartbreaking. So, this can't be love. Besides, it's been just weeks. (though wala yan sa length of time, as they say) and I have no plan of letting this grow into something much deeper than what I feel at the moment. In short, hanggang dito na lang to. Either stop it from here or totally divert it into something else.
Paano ba to? I thought this can be fun and all kilig and good things but as days go by, di na masaya. Could this be really serious? I hope not.
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