to my sister who began to drift away

first of all, I love you. What we're having right now is sort of an awkward situation, and it didn't just started because of our infamous 'closet wars' but a constellation of petty fights that rooted from our pride. Nobody wants to raise the white flag first because of our own reasons. As for me, I grew tired. Tired of understanding, of being patient, of being the one to approach first. I want you to know that I, also get tired physically, mentally and more so, emotionally. Despite that, I don't take that feeling to anyone, nor pick up on anybody. I don't drag people into trouble or get into fights when I'm tired. By the way, I'm not mad. I'm just tired, like you. And I ask for your understanding that this time, I am choosing to keep distance, or stay silent around you. We need time. Enough time for us to realize our mistakes and figure out how to become better...better for ourselves and for others. We need to nurture the good things left in us and eventually have the courage enough to talk to each other. This might have been our worst Christmas but nevertheless, I'm wishing you a merry one.

P.S.
I want you to know that this is hard for me, but I just keep on thinking this is what we need.