today, i woke up feeling and thinking na parang pagod nako. i mean, pagod nang umasa. i've been struglling for a couple of months now and it got worse since summer vacation started. I was always telling myself na "tama na. ang sakit na ng sobra e."well, i'm melodramatic talaga, kahit wala akong karapatang masaktan at magreklamo, sinasabi ko na kung kelan ako nasasaktan. It's not to blame people, but to show how much i still long for that person. Ang sakit pala ng sobra kapag nakita mong okay na sya tapos even happier pa kesa nung nasa yo sya. it's love, true love when you let him be happier even if it means you're not part of it. And kung nasasaktan ka pa, you need not let him know about it. magkakagulo lang. So, now I decided to keep silent, keep everything to myself, since I don't know whom I could trust. But as I've said, parang nakakapaagod na e. It's been 6 years since this story has started. I've already given 6 years of my life. I have not regretted anything kasi i've learned alot, except for the chances i had but i chose to let them just pass by. hirap e. Basta parang i'm confused na. I just pray that one morning, everything would be okay, put to normal and I would eventually forget everything about this, about him. I don't know how to end this, basta ang gulo. yun.
Thank you! To God be the Glory! :)
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