take me back

All I need in this life of sin is me and the BEACH (or somewhere far from the toxicity of Medicine) 

Well while waiting for my laptop to get fully charged and begin with my histories, let me take a breather even just by running through the memory lane. I miss the sound of beach waves, salty cold breeze, sand on my feet and the sound of people enjoying summertime. I'm actually not a beach person, but I also 'crave' for it once in a while. There's just something therapeutic about it. Aside from the beach, I also love the idea of staying in bed. yup, you read that right, most of the time, I would rather be on my bed than participate in real life. I prefer spending time alone, think and contemplate on my life and just be silent.

Most people would think of me as bully, or loud or strong or even intimidating. I find those impressions so silly. But I can't blame them, that's how they see me, or at least how they choose to look at me. Go lang, walang personalan. hahaha Only few people really know that I am the sensitive and easily affected cry baby. Not bragging it either. hehe Though their impressions get me thinking sometimes. There are moments when I would take a step back and ask myself, 'hala, bakit ganon tingin nika sakin? e di naman ako ganon?' But when I ask my real friends about it, they would simply say, 'hayaan mo na no, di ka naman ganon. chill ka lang, di mo ikapapayat yan' true enough. What I learned from this journey of encountering different types of people is that, they would choose to look at you in ways that you might not want to; it's their choice anyway, but that has nothing to do with you, it only says a lot about them.  Some would claim that they're positive and they see the good things around them, only to find out that they're actually magnifying every negative thing about you. But that's human nature. Even I, am guilty of that. So let go let go of the negativities na lang. Lahat naman hindi perfect e. Postive lang. 

Ayun nga, mabalik anko sa una kong point ano, PAGOD na ko since last week. Gusto ko naman magswimming at kumain at magshopping at MATULOG NANG MAHABA. please. Well, gusto ko din magkatalent at mag artista na lang minsan, pero feel ko, di ako makakatulog nang maayos at mahaba kaya wag na lang muna yon. So, kahit TULOG AT PAHINGA na lang muna, solve nako. Yung kain at shopping kahit next time na lang, mga after 2 weeks, ganon. 

Anyway, I see my laptop fully charged now-time for homeworks and deadlines to meet, so vavoo!!