second to the last

you annoyed me today. no. you hurt me today. i really hope you did not mean it.

seize the moment

today was extra special. we bonded stronger, like our friendship turned a level higher. 

we shared the same bed, like laid really close with each other. 

we talked a bit sweeter, more serious.

more laughters than arguments

and I find you a lot sweeter than the usual, 

and it makes me wanna melt.

but you are not in love with me, the same way I am to you.

but I accept that. 

I'm content with our 'moments' today

No one can take it away from me. It may not last long, but it did happen. 

Today happened. 

stop

stop loving him. but how? stop thinking of him. stop looking forward to seeing him. stop talking to him and about him. stop, just stop.

he is never gonna love you the way he loves his girl.

he will never be your 'the one'

because he does not deserve to be. YOU HAVE A LOT OF LOVE TO GIVE, and if he does not recognise how precious you are and how much love you're willing to give, the HE DOES NOT DESERVE ANY OF IT.

What to do...

So here's the thing. What should I do with my feelings for this guy. I keep on falling in love with this man all over again. PAANO BA?!

SUNDAY CURRENTLY VOL. XIV

hi guys! I can't believe it's mid-September already!!! And hello IM rotation!!! Well, I had my very first day as duty in the ER last 16th (Friday), and luckily, we have a review the next day, so no AdCon for us. Anyway, I really missed blogging, so here's an update about  my Sunday. 

Currently...

Reading: IM platinum, which I don't really plan to do, pero naisip ko lang i-browse. Aside from that, I'm reading several Facebook posts and some blogs hehehehe

Writing: My schedule for the next month and this entry for the blog

Listening: "Best In Me" by Blue courtesy of Spotify

Wearing: My favourite sleepwear.

Thinking: Of my future plans after this clerkship

Praying/Hoping/Wishing/Wanting: To survive clerkship and get a good sleep right after. 

guys, cyan na lang for now because I really need to prepare myself for tomorrow's duty. As in this year has been so tiring and challenging and annoying and fulfilling and everything at the same time. 

tired

....is such an understatement. Alam mo yung feeling that you need some sort of escape from reality, but you are bounded by responsibilities. I feel like I'm not ready for this whenever I'm asked to do something I have no idea about. Or I feel like this is not for me whenever I get too impatient to end the day and get home. I don't understand how my life have been going since I started clerkship. I only enjoy the times I spend with my friends and the bonding that we have but the workload and other stuff are all kapagod, kasha and kainis. 

But maybe, I'm just tired and fed up. I'm still hoping for great experiences though. 

Til my next!

tired

....is such an understatement. Alam mo yung feeling that you need some sort of escape from reality, but you are bounded by responsibilities. I feel like I'm not ready for this whenever I'm asked to do something I have no idea about. Or I feel like this is not for me whenever I get too impatient to end the day and get home. I don't understand how my life have been going since I started clerkship. I only enjoy the times I spend with my friends and the bonding that we have but the workload and other stuff are all kapagod, kasha and kainis. 

But maybe, I'm just tired and fed up. I'm still hoping for great experiences though. 

Til my next!