SUNDAY CURRENTLY VOL. XIV

hi guys! I can't believe it's mid-September already!!! And hello IM rotation!!! Well, I had my very first day as duty in the ER last 16th (Friday), and luckily, we have a review the next day, so no AdCon for us. Anyway, I really missed blogging, so here's an update about  my Sunday. 

Currently...

Reading: IM platinum, which I don't really plan to do, pero naisip ko lang i-browse. Aside from that, I'm reading several Facebook posts and some blogs hehehehe

Writing: My schedule for the next month and this entry for the blog

Listening: "Best In Me" by Blue courtesy of Spotify

Wearing: My favourite sleepwear.

Thinking: Of my future plans after this clerkship

Praying/Hoping/Wishing/Wanting: To survive clerkship and get a good sleep right after. 

guys, cyan na lang for now because I really need to prepare myself for tomorrow's duty. As in this year has been so tiring and challenging and annoying and fulfilling and everything at the same time. 

tired

....is such an understatement. Alam mo yung feeling that you need some sort of escape from reality, but you are bounded by responsibilities. I feel like I'm not ready for this whenever I'm asked to do something I have no idea about. Or I feel like this is not for me whenever I get too impatient to end the day and get home. I don't understand how my life have been going since I started clerkship. I only enjoy the times I spend with my friends and the bonding that we have but the workload and other stuff are all kapagod, kasha and kainis. 

But maybe, I'm just tired and fed up. I'm still hoping for great experiences though. 

Til my next!

tired

....is such an understatement. Alam mo yung feeling that you need some sort of escape from reality, but you are bounded by responsibilities. I feel like I'm not ready for this whenever I'm asked to do something I have no idea about. Or I feel like this is not for me whenever I get too impatient to end the day and get home. I don't understand how my life have been going since I started clerkship. I only enjoy the times I spend with my friends and the bonding that we have but the workload and other stuff are all kapagod, kasha and kainis. 

But maybe, I'm just tired and fed up. I'm still hoping for great experiences though. 

Til my next!

explode

I hate myself today.

I hate it that I'm too transparent with my feelings and people can see right thru me

I hate that I'm too dependent

I hate that I'm too clingy

I hate that I'm too weak for challenges

I hate that I'm too immature

I hate that I'm too selfish

I hate that I'm too childish

I hate that I care too much for people who wouldn't do even half of what I can do for them

I hate that I expect too much from people

I hate that I'm worthless and people can't appreciate what I can do

I hate everything about me today

explode

I hate myself today.

I hate it that I'm too transparent with my feelings and people can see right thru me

I hate that I'm too dependent

I hate that I'm too clingy

I hate that I'm too weak for challenges

I hate that I'm too immature

I hate that I'm too selfish

I hate that I'm too childish

I hate that I care too much for people who wouldn't do even half of what I can do for them

I hate that I expect too much from people

I hate that I'm worthless and people can't appreciate what I can do

I hate everything about me today

dazed and confused

i want to stop the time, and yet i want this over

i want to have you now but i don't feel ready yet

i want this, but i can't just now

mind's boggling and i'm not sure why

can't help but question why

things happen for a reason for sure

got no choice but to accept things

this heart got no choice but to continue beating

feels purposeless but still thankful

tomorrow's another day

survive and conquer is the key