you should know how hard it is for me to take all these things at once.
you should know how painful it is to read every article about you
you should know how confusing everything seems right now
you should know how barely I could take the next things to come without shedding a single drop of tear
you have no idea how I struggle to survive each day thinking about you
you have no idea how I hate to be affected but I am
you have no idea how difficult it was and still is for me to not think about you
you have no idea how long this suffering has been and I still can't stop
you don't seem to understand what is going on
you don't seem to worry on what you might lose
you don't seem to feel the pain
because even from the start,
you have never seem to care at all.
