7.14.2012

i am NOT OKAY. okay?

no matter how i try to accept things as they come, events as they happen and people as they leave, there will always be a silent scream coming from me which asking, 'BAKET BA NANGYAYARI SAKIN TO??!!' tipong kahit ayoko magmura, nagiging mantra ko na sa maghapon yung tatahimik na lang ako kapag matutulog na. minsan nga, di ko na din alam kung pano ko makakatulog. haaaaay life! di kita bet ngayon ha! kaloka na girl! basagan na lang ng bungo, gusto mo?? =| badtrip. etong mga sinusulat kong to, sobrang hindi ako few years ago. hahahha. sobrang positive vibes ako dati, as in yung mga iniisip at sinasabi ko, positive and sensible talaga, tapos parang nag iba. unti unti. parang bumaliktad na lahat. tapos parang wala nang maayos na nangyayari. waaaa!!!! kakatakot=| BVNESS na naman. oh well papel. ano bang nagawa ko at inaaway ako ng tadhana ngayon? daya naman men! unfair laloo. buti na lang may bago akong friends. hihihi kamown. lang kwentang blog to ngayon a. sorry mga pre. stress lang. wala lang masabihan. peace out. penge namang happiness. kung sino mang nag uumapaw ang kasiyahan dyan! be generous! hahaha =D 

7.10.2012

CHANGE

yes, it is unavoidable and everything is subjected to it but it is still your choice if you would go with it and be a total stranger to your old friends or remain as the person as I used to now you. It just saddens me that we are slowly growing apart despite the chances that we have to stay close simply because you've changed your lifestyle. I don't disagree with your 'new thing' now nor am I envious of what you have now. I just hope and wish you happiness. I believe I've tried hard enough to keep up with your new interests, but I apologize now for I can no longer go with your flow. As much as I hate to say it, 'sorry, di nako makasabay sa mga gusto mo=(' and I can accept the obvious fact that my interests don't interest you anymore. Though hard, I am making an effort starting now not to push any of those to you. Nakakapagod din mamilit ha! :p I get tired too and if you really notice, I always try to make you happy even if it no longer concerns me. But I'm not blaming anyone, nor asking something in return. I just want to let this out.  Before this post even create a buzz, i would like to clear that I don't feel any intense emotion right now and I've thought of posting this for several days already. there.

much love, your dear friend. xoxo